and

actions have
consequences and
reactions

that snowball.

usually
it's too late when
manifest

except to swallow.

tell yourself that this is the path you have taken, that to gain is to lose, and to lose is, too, to gain. oh the mask of human emotions is so sturdily-built, decorated with jewels and silver, a diamond shell made of hard ugliness

obsessions

are what will define you

the whirlwind of wandering

a dearth of words

my mouth a gaping black hole

nothing comes out

and i frantically seek words to fill the vacuum

in these times

certain photographs are able to fit the shape of my emotions,

the unfound words slipping smoothly into the layers of light and softness within.

yes, this quietening, shutting the world out, unnecessary distractions, be disciplined and focused and courageous enough to understand the world unfiltered, filtered only through the wordless, the same eyes, be quiet, be patient

“How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart, you begin to understand, there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep...that have taken hold.”

― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Return of the King