this are the times when I really don't know what to do

days of knowing what is coming and trying to fight it 

through desperate measures that are both subtle and laughable

still the lines of reality blur, the structures collapse

music either makes me want to puke or cry

it feels like you are on both sides

concrete existence only seeing blankness in front, and

floating in nothingness with reality out of reach in front of you

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